kenangan

Sebuah kenangan manis..

Dikala dunia menjadi begitu sempit..
Dikala waktu menjadi begitu singkat..

Sesaat sebelum kepergian ku..
60 days to go..

i do like to under-estimate today

Today there was a guest speaker from UNESCO..
his speech was really inspirational..
one of the things he said that i cant get out from my head is that people do like to over-exaggerate yesterday, over-estimate tomorrow and under-estimate today..
well..
i am one of those people..
i do like to over-exaggerate yesterday.. the good old days he said.. living in past memories..
i do also like to over-estimate tomorrow.. making promises to my self that i will do lots of things tomorrow.. keep delaying to do some works.. keep saying to my self.. i will do it tomorrow..
and yes i do like to under-estimate today.. and always says "entar dulu ah".. or in english.. "i will do it later".. like now.. i still don;t want to work.. because i have wasted another day.. and i don;t feel like working.. keep saying tomorrow i will wake up early, and start working.. but tonight.. lets watch one movie..

oh well...
it is who i am..
a deadliners...

a wish

i wish i can capture every moment we spent...
and remember every second precisely..
because i realize our time is getting shorter and shorter..

if i am

if i am the dream life partner you always wanted,
why can't i take over the role of your dream girl in her

spectator

mereka bergandeng tangan
mereka bertengkar
mereka hancur
mereka kembali berjalan bersama

i'm not a participant
i'm just simply a spectator

karma

it feels like just few days ago me and him talk about emails from other student that lost their atm..
we said "how could they forget to take their atm card? it doesn't make sense! if you lost your wallet it can be understand.. but loosing only atm card???"
and we keep making fun of it..

but then..
just yesterday i did what we called as stupid mistake..

yep..
i lost my atm card..

as i remember.. last time i use it was on friday, 2pm..
when i try to rewind my memory on to that time, i was not in a hurry..
and i think i put the atm card back to my wallet, because i also put the money in..
and yesterday afternoon im going to take some money and just realize that the card is not there..
it feels like my heart stopped..
and then i'm panic..

first thing i did was rushing to the bank and print my bank book..
but how unlucky i am, because my bank book run out of pages..
so i can't check my last balance..

finally after calming down my self i called the customer service..
and surprisingly, they have excellent english which is really rare in this country..
so, they've canceled my card, and thank God the balance is still the same..

next thing to do in the morning is go to the bank and make new card..
which will cost me 300baht..
hiiiks..

is it a karma?
i don't think so, because we shouldnt believe in karma, right?
but the lesson learn is don't say anyone is fool because you might also be like them someday..
so i take my words back..
people who loosing their atm card is not a fool

something wrong

yesterday i saw a smile in your face,
one time, yes, only one time,
and it is not because of of..

i've tried to make you draw another curve in your face,
but i failed.

i know there is something wrong..
i keep asking but ended up with no answer..

why i keep everything for your self..
can't you share anything anymore with me..
why i can't be the one who can make you smile..
make you feel comfort..
why i can't make any different in you like what you did to me..

hunting duren

Setelah bergabung sejenak di rapat permitha,
akhirnya saya melarikan diri bersama gerombolan lainnya..

sasarannya adalah hunting duren..

karna belum musimnya, makhluk bernama duren sangat sulit ditemui..
padahal kalo lagi membludak di kantin kampus pun ada..

datanglah tawaran untuk mencari keberadaan duren di pasar induk dekat kampus..
tawaran yang sungguh menggiurkan bila dibandingkan dengan rapat yang.. begitulah...

setelah menggoes sepeda cukup jauh, dan tak lupa NGANGKAT sepedah di jembatan penyebrangan, nyampe juga kami disana..
ketemu lah tempat jualan duren..
banyaaaaaak durennya..
tapi sayangnya tak ada yang suk suk mak mak.. alias mateng..

tapi ketemu juga satu duren yang agak mateng..
lumayan, dari pada pulang dengan tangan kosong..
duren kami beli dengan harga 25baht per kilo buat yang belum dikupas,
sedangkan yang udah dikupas gak tau juga perkilo nya berapa..

setelah memborong duren dengan total harga 260baht, kami ber9 pun nongkring menghabiskan duren dengan kalapnya..
itung2 mengisi perut dan mengisi energi untuk ngegoes sepedah balik kekampus..
badan sudah hangat..
sudah sanggup ngebut menghindari anjing2 yang menggonggong dan siap mengejar.. hehehe

akhirnya tau juga tempat jual duren di talad thai..
wi hiiii...

salam hangat dari kami ber9 dan dari si ibu2 penjual duren (yang mejeng paling depan)

i dont want

why can't you understand that i don't want to..
and keep making excuses..

why you need to ask me directly in front of other..
i think you know the answer why.
yes... because it is for me and you. and not for others.

i don't want..
full stop.

bastard

I cant stop thinking,
What everyone else will think if they found out about us,
and the story about our game.

"you darn lucky bastard"

maybe.

apple

it is not the apple of adam and eve
it is ours

thanks yaar..

drink it

you said you are not an alcoholic drinker..
but i know you are..

yes, you are not suppose to drink any kind of alcohol..
but i know that white wine is your favorite..

you can't resist the temptation of drinking white wine..
you will always look for one..
and a sip of sparkling white wine can always brightened up you day..

however, only a glass of red wine is served in front of you,
every day..
you also like it..
you enjoy it..
but when you come to your senses that you are not allowed to drink..
you can stop your self..
but you will again take it after..

so dear,
don't claim your self as not an alcoholic drinker..
because you know you drink that white wine even when you said you wont..
i don't need to ask to know..

and i will give you a glass of red wine every day..
oh yes i will..
even though i know it is a glass of sparkling white wine that you are yearning for..
because deep down i hope you will also taste the wine i gave

told ya

You can call me heart-less,
or a numb person,
but i'm sorry, i have no regrets..

i really do like it..

roti lapis

thank you for playing..
and be a sandwich..

i really do thankful..

We will do better..
And try to stay clean..

full moon

I look at the sky..
There is a full moon..
Shining really bright in the pathumthani sky..

Is it a sign of the new beginning?
Is it represent the optimism of a clean new chapter of our lives?

But..
Can we really wash our dirty hands,
Like nothing wrong ever happen?

Saturday, January 10th 2009
3 am sharp

dirty water

You ask me:
"Why do you want to play in dirty water?"

Dear,
I am not a saint that playing in dirty water..
Don;t get fooled by the clarity it shows.
The pure look-a-like water has undefined taste.
It is not a lean water.
It never is.

I am me.
Don't think that what u did is for my best interest.
Because for me, it is not making any good.
It destroys me.

Don't decide what is right and wrong for me.
Just let me be me.